the waiting game
28 more days or so... anything can happen, we'll never know. i am hurting but i cannot complain. i don't know where i get my strength but i am pretty tough though it weakens me inside. i smile but i cry a lot, and i mean a lot on the inside. sometimes, most of the time i cannot contain what's inside so they form into tears. i want to win the battle but there is no battle to be fought in the first place. i wanted to shout, i wanted it all out, it's becoming heavier as each day goes by.. i love him so much but not enough to keep him.. i want him happy. he has given me 2 years of pure love and happiness and i think it is time to return the favor, it's now time for him to experience what i have experienced with him, but not with me.i never knew how to handle or mend a broken heart.. i just go with wherever He takes me but God help me.. i just want him to be happy...