A Cup of T

i am swimming in a pool of anxiety, scared of changes, oblivious of the future. then i asked God to shed me some light as i've been so down lately and he answered me with this.. http://www.pattylaurel.com/2014/08/compare-less-contemplate-more.html "Some friends are meant to be Ateneans, others Lasallians. There are those who are built to be freelancers, others are excellent at their 9-to-5 routines. Some are meant to be doctors, others lawyers, others are meant to be in the North, some are meant to reside in the South. Some have extra money, others have extra talents. Some get hitched at 20, others find the love of their lives at 45. Different stories, different blessings, different challenges---but LOVED by the Lord, all the same. The Lord manifests his LOVE in unique ways at a specified time for each of us. So don't be confined to the "Buti pa siya..eh bakit ako, wala pa rin" mentality that blinds us from seeing the goodness of God in our own live...

28 more days or so... anything can happen, we'll never know. i am hurting but i cannot complain. i don't know where i get my strength but i am pretty tough though it weakens me inside. i smile but i cry a lot, and i mean a lot on the inside. sometimes, most of the time i cannot contain what's inside so they form into tears. i want to win the battle but there is no battle to be fought in the first place. i wanted to shout, i wanted it all out, it's becoming heavier as each day goes by.. i love him so much but not enough to keep him.. i want him happy. he has given me 2 years of pure love and happiness and i think it is time to return the favor, it's now time for him to experience what i have experienced with him, but not with me.i never knew how to handle or mend a broken heart.. i just go with wherever He takes me but God help me.. i just want him to be happy...

"Double Rainbow" You're a one of a one A one of a kind That you only find once in a lifetime Made to fit like a fingerprint A code that clicks open a gold mine They say one man's trash is another man's treasure When I found you, it was all pitter-patter Secretly, I hit the lottery 'Cause you're brighter than all of the Northern Lights You speak to me, even in my dreams Wouldn't let you go for even the highest price They say one man's trash is another girl's treasure So if it's up to me, I'm gonna keep you forever 'Cause I understand you, we see eye to eye Like a double rainbow in the sky And wherever you go, so will I 'Cause a double rainbow is hard to find Was a phenomenon when you came along Yeah, our chemistry was more than science It was deafening, loud like lightning, it was striking You couldn't deny it They say one man's trash is another man's treasure The two of us toget...

2013 has been my best so far, suffice it to say that it has been a turn up for the books. i gained new friends who has the same kind of crazy as everyone else, and luckily has been my family here Abroad.  and after i cannot count years (insert exaggeration here), the whole fam bam was complete (siblings plus folks, mind you), all together in Ilocos, in Hong Kong and most especially at home in the Philippines.  actually, this was the highlight of my year, an experience i can say is a blue moon and one for the books. but i gotta give this one to the guy whom i consider as my person, my very own jester, my frenemy, the one who was always there all throughout eversince day one, my favorite boy on earth, Kenny. i just love how he accepts me, flaws and all, i love the way i irritate him  with all my shortcomings but still wants to keep me and i like and love him just the same. i know a lot has happened during the 365 days that the Earth has swiftly ...